Well, I just realized I have had the same journal up for three years.  Sad, yes, I know.  But is it really?

Well, I guess in a way it shows that DA hasn't been that much of a priority...and that I haven't really had the time or the ability to do much with my camera, but on the other hand, it also shows how busy I have been with other endeavors.

Not all of these endeavors have been of my own choosing or even, for that matter, much fun at all.  However, some have been a real kick in the pants.

I have started, at least, performing as a singer, albeit not entirely what I was hoping for.  I would not, however, give it up.  Having found some wonderful friends and met some amazing people, I have found a sense of peace and tranquility I've never had in my life prior.

Our new Church has been a blessing to us and has helped me find some point to which I may anchor myself as I try and figure out where next to go in my life.

To be honest, at this point, I have no specific direction in which I know that I want to go.  What I do know, is that where ever it is I do go, I won't be alone.

I look back on the last 3 years and ask, 'Where has it all gone'?  Well, that's a self defeating question really.  Think about it.  What does it matter where they've gone, just that they've gone.  I can never get those years back and no matter how much I may feel that I've wasted them...dwelling on it only serves to depress me.  I do not wish to be depressed.  I want to be happy.  I want to be the person I used to be before life decided to kick my ass and laugh at me.

So, while I have regrets over the last 3 years, I look forward to the next year with hope.  Hope for a better job, for a better home...For my dreams to come to fruition.  Whether these happen or not, I will not worry about them, only try my hardest to assure that they do.  And, of course, to enjoy the ride.

So, that said.  I'm going to sign off.  Life awaits, and there are too little hours in a day to spend them all here.  I have people to meet and there is fun to be had.

Have fun.

    Enjoy the ride.
        
        Say hi to a stranger.


God bless y'all and Merry Christmas

Steven